Please ...

And I reached to that stage that I cant fool myself anymore

But I cant accept the fact that you left already

You are not coming back 

I know it but i hate to admit it 

And I wont 

i wont

Though you fucked me up all these years and I still blame myself for that not you, 

But I don't want a life without you

I just cant live without you 

Can you fucking get it????

It kills me 

It kills me for real and seriously I don't know how far I can go cause everything started to clash and I don't simply feel weak, I collapse every now and then 

Everyone around thinks that its just the side effects of something i have 

But I know that its not

Its you

The side effects of YOU!

Im not just broken inside

I feel like there is a huge hole inside me 

It hurts me

Too much pain

i cant take it hun

I cant handle this pain

So please just come back 

Just come back

I need you for real

I need you to be able to breath without pipes and needles ...