Don't wake me up

Sometimes you wish that he never leaves your dreams, he visits you every night, every time you close your eyes. But some other times, you wish he don’t.

It feels real when the people who aren’t around comes around in our dreams. Their skin, touch, kisses and hugs, they all feel real and …. Just amazing.

You wish you could just live these moments for the rest of your lives and you never wake up.

But nothing lasts forever, especially the good moments. When you finally wake up, and realize that it was just a dream, you don’t know what to do. Mixed feelings, happiness and sadness. You don’t know, do you feel thankful for having him in your dreams and feeling him alive inside you, or just regretting feeling him alive since it opened your wounds wider and made them deeper.

And finally, a smile from your lips appear, and a tear falls from your eye. You keep replaying the dream inside your head all day long, and a deep smile appears at your face and your eyes sparkles as you try hard to trap that tear inside your eye.

I would choose sleeping forever, and keep dreaming of him and never wake up unless he comes back </3

Apart from everything happened, I still have a feeling that one day he will come back and he will realise how fucked up I became after he left.