Can we meet?

I never felt closer to him than I am today since he left me two years back,

I feel like there is only few miles between us not oceans,

But the saddest part is that I can’t see you, I can’t feel your touch, warmth, breath…

You asked me to meet you before I flew to the other side of the world, but I refused because I know that after meeting you, I will spend six months crying and screaming wanting you and regretting flying to million miles away from you.

I thought that I won’t regret anything by not meeting you, but I spent six months regretting it…

I shut the door at my own face to not suffer and suffered more,

I thought by not seeing you I will save me the pain,

But it made everything worst…

And now, since I am back, I need to meet you, but I’m too scared to ask you,

Though I know you will be happy to say yes, but I can’t

I just can’t ask you …