I took a twenty hour plane just to see you,
Just to give us chance to face each other,
A chance for me to see what you are really hiding from me,
Just to give a chance for me to read your eyes, and force myself to believe that you don't have any feelings for me anymore, or never did maybe,
In this long ride, I spent every second thinking about you, about how am I going to face you and what will happen in that meet up.
I spent a lot of my time thinking how am I going to bounce back from the bad news I'm about to get
Or maybe the flashbacks that will get to me when I first see you, how am I going to hide my tears and screams from you even though I cant hide them when I'm not with you!
I'm too weak without you, can't you see that??
I'm too weak when it comes to "you"
I can't hide my tears from strangers when I think about you then how would I hide it from you?
I don't want you to see me weak, or breaking apart,
I want you to see that i'm ok with every decision we make, but I'm not really good at "acting" when there is something that kills me, something that had been haunting me for years which is you and the wounds you stamped on my heart or me as whole.
I loved you and I will forever love you no matter how bad that meet up will go,
But hopefully, you will get a flashback of our memories together and love me as I do love you
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