I’m scared from getting hurt again

Maybe it is not about you,

Maybe you aren’t the one who is holding me back from falling for someone other than you,

After playing all the scenarios in my head over and over again,

I realized that I’m scared!

I’m scared from getting hurt again!

I’m scared from going through another nightmare of the same kind,

And be chased by two nightmares not only one …

If I could just undo the years, and never get involved with you…

Never meet you and never fall for you,

I wish we just stayed strangers,

I wish we became enemies not lovers!

But going back in time is impossible,

So I don’t have any other choice except to relive your memory every day,

And keep pushing everyone away so that I won’t get hurt by another monster!

Your memory wears me like a stain

Your memory wears me like a stain,

Can’t erase it or even reduce its shade,

Haunting me in every step I take,

No matter how, when and where,

You left me in unbearable pain,

Can’t describe its chafe,

Not just broken,

But in a horrible terrible way …

I'm so tired ...

I’m so tired of pushing everyone away because they are not you,

I’m so tired of shutting my doors on peoples’ face because you are not with them,

I’m so tired of keeping my distance from everyone to not get close,

I’m so tired of seeing you in every guy eye,

I’m so tired of hearing your voice inside my head,

I’m so tired of seeing you whenever I shut my eyes close,

I’m so tired of having you in every dream,

I’m so tired of being without ‘You’,

I’m so tired of not being able with anyone other than you,

Or perhaps, fall in love with someone other than YOU ...