His birthday

The clocks are ticking,

And my heart beats faster and stronger with every second,

After couple of hours,

He will be turning twenty,

And again,

I’m not his girl…

It’s weird,

We never celebrated our birthdays together,

This is the first time,

But,

We are not really together together,

I’m just an old friend to him,

And to me,

He is my world!

Should I call him?

Text him?

Or just pretend that I don’t remember his birthday?

It’s painful,

Being in the background.

An old friend, who is fucking obsessed with you,

And you are pretending that you can’t see that obsession?

Or you are just too scared to take a step closer?